American Idol Christian says Simon's crush may have cost her 'Idol' prize 08/16/2002 Zap2It.com reports that ousted 'American Idol' contestant Christian thinks that judge Simon Cowell's crush on her might have cost her the title of American Idol. Read More RELATED NEWS 'American Idol' Season 1 finalist Nikki McKibbin dies at age 42 Kelly Clarkson says her weight reflects her happiness -- "It's when I'm fat that I'm happy"Kelly Clarkson: "I wanted to kill myself" when I was "really skinny" TAGS: American Idol Simon Cowell